Tuesday, February 2, 2010
I am obsessed with weight! All my life (regardless of my size) I've always wanted to be smaller and thinner. I've never been happy with my size. As a direct result of that I have developed an unhealthy obsession with weight. Like SWV said "It's always on my mind, all the time - thinking of it". I can honestly say I have been pursing weight loss relentlessly for most of my twenties. My former weights have been 123, 129, 130, 135, 140 and (my highest weight ever) 159! It appears to me as though my "obsession" has not assisted me one bit in the weight loss process. It has however, stressed me out, caused me to gain more weight, and has made all of my friends, family, and some co - workers tell me to SHUT - UP! Well, I agree. From now on, I choose to find a new and healthy obsession! I will continue to lose weight but refuse to obsess about it! I am beautiful! I am going to be content with where I am while actively striving for where I want to be! It's not a competition but ultimately, I will win this race! I'm thinking about dancing for my new obsession - any suggestions?